FANS' LAND

Fanfic
Impossible love by SailorMeila

(translate from italian into english by Kurumi)

CHAPTER 1 "Reflection"

I don't know where I am, I never knew.
I'm alone, in this place so big and at the same time so small.
Here is all dark, I can only see myself, only me.
I would like to scream, to howl all my sadness and my grunge, but I can't. Here no sound can be heard, no colours can be seen, nothing is in here.
And here I am, lying in this place without a sense, thinking of all my melancholy.
I don't have an identity, a reason to live, nothing at all.
I'm only a reflection, an image used only to be exploited, to be out of damage, but after doing my purpose I'm thrown away as a used hadkerchief.
As this wasn't enough, another feeling torment me. Love.
Yes, the love for a human being that don't even know that I exist.
Since that time when I kissed you for error, I've always loved you, Matt. And I've been dreaming my love here alone, with the ice in my heart.
And so... this feeling leave his place to the rage, and to the grudge toward the person that took all this off: yes, Will, I'm talking of you.
You've create me, you made me think of being your friend; then, after doing my purpose, you threw me away without any regret.
But now I'm not a puppet anymore, in my eyes is burning the fire of rebellion, and then... you'll see what I am able to do...


CHAPTER 2 "Don't forget me"

The astral drops finally obtained from the Oracle a new life and Will already told everything to Matt.
Everyone seems to have obtained everything they wanted, but... is it really true?

I'm in another city, with another appearance, anything here around me is connected with you, Will.
I don't feel that grudge anymore, that sense of rebellion that once burned in my spirit, I'm not a reflection anymore, but a true person.
When I watch my image in the mirror, I see a tall girl with blond hairs and blue eyes.
I'm completely free, I have my identity.
I don't have any link with you.
NO! Who am i trying to convince?!
I have a link to you, and a very strong one.
This yarn that keep us united is named Matt.
Even if I'm happy and have a true life, I can't forget him.
I love him too much, he's so sweet, nice, sensible, but now my story with him is even more impossible that before; We live apart from each other and, even if I'ld return back to him, he won't even recognize me.
Oh, Matt.. I would like to kiss you one more time.
But I know that now Will is kissing you, and that she's taking care of you.
In a certain mode... is like I am there with you, don't you think?
You don't even know I'm a person different from Will, but please.. don't forget me.
Don't forget those beautiful moments we passed together; Even if you'ld think it had been Will to give you those emotions, I will be happy the same, because I will know that at least one drop of me remained in your heart...

- Bye Matt, see you tomorrow!
Will gives me a rapid kiss and slipped away on her bicycle.
Even today we talked about her problems, about all that cosmical threats and so on.
When she explained me about all that, I've been very surprised, but I was almost upset when she told me about you.
All those moments, the moments that gave me the most part of all that emotion, have been with you, not with Will.
You.. you are such a simple person, such sincere, at the same time such funny...
I still remember when you slapped me at school and everyone was watching!
In that moment I wasn't understanding anything! You kiss me, and then you slap me?
But I liked this thing about you...
It's strange, I love you and I even don't know your name.
Calling you "Will" is not fair... after all those attempts of having an identity on your own.
Will told me how much you've been soffering because you were loving me and you were only a reflection, and I felt stupid not to understand it before.
I told her I wouldn't have missed you, but it's not true.
You were so different from Will, so happy and simple...
I will never forget you, everywhere you are, but not as Will, not as a reflection, but as my true love...

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